Hehe. I guess I'm now the outcast from a community of outcasts....
That's... interesting. Typical, really~ I'm back to my Audience of Nothingness - right where I began. Like coming home. My own little void to write in~ Heh. Really, if it weren't for one detail..... I'd actually be happy about that. Having people read what I write in this thing just... it felt wrong. So wrong. I didn't like it. Didn't like it at all. I hated it. I started using it less and less as the number of people reading it grew and grew...
See, it wasn't designed for that. Why would it? Not for others. From day one, I made it for me, no one else. My place. I started it in the void... and now I'm right back to it. Like a boomerang. Unavoidable really. It's where I'm most comfortable. I like the Nothing. I like the Hole. The stretches of oblivion where I don't have to worry about how my words can be twisted against me. My place. My void...
Like I said all the way back in post one: this is my place to rant. To yell; To let off some steam; To be loud... because I can't be loud in real life. Always have to take it. Always have to deal. But not on here.... not on here... the void takes it all, doesn't it? It doesn't care. Scream as loud as you want - it just gets swallowed up into the Nothing. I guess when this became a Something - when They came - I should have toned it down. Made it their level. I never wanted their level though. That's not what I needed. What I need. I wouldn't be here otherwise....
Never expected Hakurei to leave. That's the One. The One detail that derails it all. Wouldn't be so bad if it was just on here but... same everywhere. She doesn't respond. Won't respond. Can't blame her, I guess. She swore she'd never leave. If I trusted, she'd never leave.... but I won't hold her to that. Not if she doesn't want to.
Heh... how bad does someone have to be to make someone like Hakurei walk away?
I'm better like this, I guess. Just me writing in a void. A little corner of Nothing. Yes, this feels better. Safer. The void doesn't complain after all. Doesn't judge.
I'm welcome again.
She is going to hurt SO Badly. Shatter that mind into tiny little pieces. You wanna know why Haku-Chan? YOU are why. Mitchy will break... SHATTER SHATTER SHATTER. She is SO alone right now. With only Father's outstretched arms to comfort her. Will she accept his embrace before it is too late? I hope not.
ReplyDeleteDamn... seems I was right. I know you can't read this, but hang in there Mitch; we're here for you, even though you can't see us.
ReplyDeleteI was MIA for a week and this is what I come back to? Shady was kidnapped and tortured, I almost got "eaten" by Forgotten Thrown and then Shady almost killed me because I never told her I was a girl before we met.
ReplyDeleteI don't know you well enough to call you a friend, I suppose, but that doesn't mean I don't care. There are a lot of people who care about you, but it seems right now that the baddies are coming out of the woodwork.
ughs, hate typos, you who I meant...
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